It's really stressful being a lawyer. Early on in my practice, I had consciously told myself that I must have the ability to attach to my work in the office, and then detach from it once I step out of the office. I have been able to do this quite well, especially when I was practicing civil litigation. Attach to my work at the office and in Court, then totally forget about it once I go home. Once at home, I'm just a wife and a mother.
Unfortunately, doing corporate work (especially for extremely demanding clients) is totally different and the pressure can be so tremendous that I can't help myself but bring the stress home sometimes, and AZ and the kids have to bear with unlikeable me. I just hate myself when I get hyper-sensitive and impatient. This is not me. And I don't like this me.
The past 2 weeks have been madness. Everything is top urgent. All agreements need to be executed immediately. Clashes in contract negotiations. Last minute changes in terms. I have pushed myself so hard that it's becoming unbearable. I know I have not been myself at home. I get angry with things too easily. I get too sensitive with little things. I'm so sorry to everyone at Danau Kaseh..
I'm so tired.. I just want to go home, curl up in my bed & forget the world. Can I please do that just for one day?
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How can u forget about the wrold when there's so much to do?
There's school, work, cleaning, washing, dining, homework, housework..??
Lina <3
OH NO! MORE STRESS!!
Anyway, u always make me happy Adlina.. Love u lots :)
Alamak, kesiannyer Kak Illa. Sabar ye...what to do this is business sendirikan, tapi tak pe coz u r one of the best lawyer that your client have (we all know lah kan) so u memanglah jadi fokuskan..bagus sebenarnyer..tak tau ape yang mereka akan agree too if u are not the lawyer incharge k!!! Coz u are good, very detail and firm. Sabar ya, semoga Allah berikan akak banyak kekuatan melalui semua ini. Anyway u are so lucky to have everyone at Danau kaseh yang so supportive to you and i am sure they all understand your situation. Take care!
Ohh Kak Dilla,
Have faith you can do this. Find something that can just help you relax/distract you for a while. (a while also requires some will power I know.. I get stuck on fb and blog hopping sampai lupa masa berlalu). Look forward to the holiday. masa tu tinggal kan semua!
Thanks Linda..
Kadang-kadang rasa macam nak lari jauh-jauh & forget about everything! But I know I have to be strong for them sebab kadang-kadang these people don't know what they get themselves into..
Anyway nasib baik ada friends & family around to cheer me up when I'm down :)
PS: Nak pergi Dr. Gul dengan u & Bubbles pun tak sempat..
Yes Amy, I just can't wait for next week! I will switch off my handpohone I think.. heehee :)
Hii Cik Adillah, take care always, doing a lot of good deeds will get the good returns, Insya'-Allah.
Yess yess me agree too, it always happen that only we understand the time constraint and how to cover in time but yet still those others whom not esp well...well... those type quick quick I want this and that, our Client wants this and that, our Bosses want this and that, our Customer wants this and that, got Board Meeting, got important meeting lahhhh so many rushing stuff lahhh... :(
Follow your blog from here time to time... cheriooss.
P/s : Have a picnic at home when you got time, macam main pondok2 dan masak2, simple gathering, surely will release your stress... or try listen to the zikir munajat in the car on your way home/etc... Facing the hectic and unbearable traffic jam everyday early in morning and late in the evening, not to mention, the new corporate stuff now in the office hehehe, so far do reduce mine lah...Insya'-Allah.
Hi Su,
Memang STRESS MAXIMA sometimes kan? You have to prepare Board papers ke? Poor thing!
Please keep in touch & whenever you are in Melaka, singgah la..
TC.
Puan,
How about a spa treatment?
hehe
Hope u have a nice rest for this coming weekend!
Ya la Hasanah.. Should go to a spa soon.. Have fun de-stressing in Bandung! Go! Go! Go! Buy! Buy! Buy!
Haha :)
Dilla....i pray i am not in ur list of the "extremely demanding clients".....
I really miss our gossipy sessions but i know that u r bz...sob sob sob....after you finish "agenda ketam-ketam" tu k and gi for a romantic escapade dengan ur dearest "kekasih hati"....jauh sikit lah dari Parkson k....come down to KL and makan MCC.....n go to Serenity Spa....de-stress.....+ Binwanis ada sale tau.....lagi boleh help you to relax...
Whatever it is i pray that everything will be ok for you and family..........
No Raha, of course you are not in the list! It's Ketam & his kuncu-kuncu. The latest one is this group of Pak Arab yang sangat2 demanding! Masa negotiation cakap KUAT betul macam nak bergaduh, sampai semua orang berdiri tengah2 meeting bertegang leher. Ketam nak sangat diaorang invest kat sini sampai semua demands diaorang he said OK. I frust betul la..
Anyway, I told myself not to care so much. I pulak yang beriya-iya nak protect when he himself doesn't bother if he gets a bad deal!
Can't wait to get away.. nak makn MCC!!!
Adillah, semua benda di dunia ada ada harganya. Untuk dapatkan sesuatu, perlu memberi kembali sesuatu yang lain. In your case, may be untuk dapat yg lebih baik terpaksa menggadaikan ketenangan jiwa dan kerehatan jasmani. Berkhidmatlah dengan penuh ikhlas dan sabar.
Hi Azram,
You are right, there is a price for everything. Maybe I'm too old to practice la :) Can't wait for the time that I can retire & be a stay-at-home mom. Dah tua-tua ni rasa nak dekatkan diri pada keluarga & Yang Maha Esa.
Anyway, thanks for visiting!
Puan,
Have fun at Hong Kong!!
Nk ikut!!!
hehehe
Hi Hasanah, Can't wait for some time-out with my family.. :)
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